Found inner peace again

Sometimes it's really hard to believe that someone you thought was perfect for you could turn out to be the worst person you've ever known. You just told everyone your sick lies and thought you could keep playing a double game. You use people for your own comfort. You take everything from those who love you , without giving anything in return. Look around you, do you really think you have friends and people who care about you ? Those who cared finally opened their eyes and moved on , leaving you behind. And friends? ..No you don't have any, because you don't care about anyone. You are not able to love anyone else except yourself. You only use people and manipulate them. You're so damn sick boy. You didn't deserve the love of those who cared for you in the past.
Wake up boy! Your life is a ruin. You will never get anything in your life , you will just stay at the very bottom of society. And this because of your pride. You don't have any aim in your life, and since you know that you will never be able to support yourself because of your very own stupidity, you try to enchant people with your lies, so that they can give you the comfort you need.
You know , after all you did to me( and to others as well) I'm not angry. I don't feel any anger ...I'm just disappointed , very disappointed. And it isn't you that hurts me , it's just my stupid naivity. It's just amazing how you destroy those you claim to love. But hey , this didn't destroy me ...this finally liberated me from you.And I feel , and I know that Ill get over you very quickly, because you're just a miserable mistake in my life.

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Went to my best friends house this week end. It was really great, he helped me doing my school stuff and choosing a ring ^^ Then he brought me out to a bar. It was real fun.....rly needed to see him. I feel like he's always there for me, and i hope i could do as much for him. Don't forget to call me when I'm over there, k? Cuz I think the only thing that could make me smile is hearing your voice. I thank you so much.

Happy Eastern

Stayed over at my cousin's house and we had a big easter dinner yesterday evening. ^^
We watched some movies and talked about our childhood. That's how we came to remember Dridri lol. "Je suis une orange, je dois me peler." xD omg , so f*cking hilarious. haha

And it snowed this morning! =)

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The line between love and hate is very thin.

Torn between two worlds

Have a lot of nightmares these days....don't know why. I never really had nightmares in my life, and now I get them nearly every night. Perhaps because I'm too nervous, too stressed....but maybe it's because I don't know what I really want. I thought I've made my choice, but could it be the wrong one?

My thoughts are clear

Yeah, exactly , thats for you !

Played volleyball yesterday... and my hand is so painful and turned blue now =(
I'm really not talented for those team sports lol
anyway, I'll get holidays soon , soo happy, really need holidays. School is so tiring at the moment , espacially litterature class. Pff >>school until 5pm, then homework until abt 8pm,haha and after that you still have to learn for the exams.

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You seem not to care about anything anymore, including me. Baroque poets came to this conclusion way before I did: Everything changes everyday, we are never the same as the day before. You showed me that this is true. What you told me yesterday is the total opposite of what you're saying now, what you did yesterday seems to be totally forgotten by you now.
However, I've made my choice...

I've cured my addiction to you

Had a meeting with my teachers and the headmaster today. They told me that everything is fine , that I have excellent marks....that I'm very disciplinated and hardworking ^^ haha


So everything is going well at school^^. Singing lesson was really nice today, but I still have to practice the songs for the concert. Hm.. don't know what to do this week end, ..have to work and learn.. hm , and maybe I'll go to


>>>>>>>>

Avignon tomorrow!^^

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absence + silence = indifference ?

Sometimes I want to leave everything behind and fly to heaven

I'm really sorry. Believe me. You know I don't want to be like this, but sometimes I can't control myself. Of course this isn't an excuse for what I did. But I can only repeat that I'm sorry , and I really mean it!

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Sometimes you need to drink the pain away

Hello everyone

First entries are horrible...you never really know what to write.

Anyway, had a very important exam yesterday. I'm so glad that it's over now...was really stressed. The next important exams are in may and june , so I still have some time to learn^^

Hm.. went to Pont du Gard last week end *really nice. There were a lot of cute little chinese boys ^^' haha I nearly kidnapped one xD



~This was at Pont du Gard~

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Everything changes...except me.

But what if I start to change too?

Would you notice?