Confessions..

"And I know that he

knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy

with some other guy

I can see him dying"

Was thinking of the past today and I realised that I did you wrong. Although you will never see this, I wanna tell you that I'm sorry. You did so much for me, you were always there but I didn't care and cheated on you. I think I wasn't ready for a relationship , I was still too young and I just played with your heart. I always conjured up excuses not to meet you, though you were my boyfriend. Now that I'm looking back at all my mistakes I feel so bad because I know you really loved me. Es tut mir wirklich Leid.

I just hope you've got a fulfilled life now with your girlfriend and child.

Confused..

Spend too much time thinking.....

It's inconceivable how much one little word can change your way of thinking and living.

I promise you that I won't give up. I hope those doubts will fade soon .

One black spot on a pure white wall

Just wondering how stupid people can be.
That's simply laughable. After what I've seen til now I really think you must have some kinda mental problem.

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Exams are coming soon =((( And I have to read 16 books within a month now and have to learn nd study about 30 texts. And this is just for french/litterature classes. ='(

I'll have to pass exams in maths, informatics, biology, physics nd chemistry too.

sigh... won't have time to do anything else except studying the next few weeks.

Wanna see you so badly darlin.

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I always thought love and pain belong together until you proved me wrong.