Confessions..

"And I know that he

knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy

with some other guy

I can see him dying"

Was thinking of the past today and I realised that I did you wrong. Although you will never see this, I wanna tell you that I'm sorry. You did so much for me, you were always there but I didn't care and cheated on you. I think I wasn't ready for a relationship , I was still too young and I just played with your heart. I always conjured up excuses not to meet you, though you were my boyfriend. Now that I'm looking back at all my mistakes I feel so bad because I know you really loved me. Es tut mir wirklich Leid.

I just hope you've got a fulfilled life now with your girlfriend and child.

Confused..

Spend too much time thinking.....

It's inconceivable how much one little word can change your way of thinking and living.

I promise you that I won't give up. I hope those doubts will fade soon .

One black spot on a pure white wall

Just wondering how stupid people can be.
That's simply laughable. After what I've seen til now I really think you must have some kinda mental problem.

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Exams are coming soon =((( And I have to read 16 books within a month now and have to learn nd study about 30 texts. And this is just for french/litterature classes. ='(

I'll have to pass exams in maths, informatics, biology, physics nd chemistry too.

sigh... won't have time to do anything else except studying the next few weeks.

Wanna see you so badly darlin.

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I always thought love and pain belong together until you proved me wrong.

longing for you

Some people may think that a relationship is a prison; that you've lost your freedom, that you're always under control, that you have to report every little detail to your partner. I can only advise those people not to start a relationship, they are just not ready for love.

I would define a relationship as a golden cage. It still restricts your freedom and there are limits , limits you can't cross. But in this golden cage "freedom" becomes "faithfulness" and "controlling" is called "sharing".

You know, actually the only time I feel complete freedom is when you're by my side. Then I'm free from all those fears, thoughts and oppressive feelings.

Just miss you so much ...

Thoughts on a rainy day..

Why don't they understand that I only want and need you?

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Guys are really weird. No one is interested in you unless you are in a relationship....then every one is trying to go after you. But the weirdest is that they don't want to understand that you love your boyfriend and never wanna be unfaithful. Anyway, for all those who are concerned: I'm happy with my bf, I won't lie to him and NO I won't be unfaithful just because he lives far away!

Right, I hope it's clear now. And for those who refuse to talk to me just because I found someone I love: This is your problem! I never told you to wait for me.

Love = prison or a golden cage?