Crashlanding somewhere between heaven and hell

How can everything be so contradictory. 

This feeling...

This pain...

These doubts...

 This pleasure... 

But (unfortunately) I'm not the type to let go...even if I crash or burn. 

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Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's all right because I love the way you lie 

Once upon a time in a perfect nightmare

I know you're sorry, I know you regret. 

But there are things you can't erase, and things that can't be played down so easily. 

I will need time. So please be patient.

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"I dreamed a dream. But then it all went wrong." 

Melancholia

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You had so many opportunities to tell me the truth but you just kept adding one lie to another hoping I wouldn't see. How do you want me to live with that now? How do you want me to be okay?
I'm sorry to say but you're breaking me down.

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People say trust takes years to build, only seconds to break and forever to repair. 

But what if I can't wait forever?